i'm very troubled

[MoP]

The only threads of you that have a meaning are the ones I post in!

[Nagash]

each one of my threads has youtube links.......

lol

Fixed.

[owly]

there's a hole in my heart and it hurts when the wind blows through it

Edit/youtube is good for you lol

[owly]

in a couple of days i'll be here just withy my daughter at least i won't be alone. it's been hard for me i been crying myself to sleep, hatama usually handles the money but lately i been handling the bills and i suck at handling my own money. we'll still friends though so that's good atleast......

[owly]

Well my first night alone and i'm heart broken i just want to die

[Grunt]

Owly when you are happy with yourself and comfortable being alone you will be truly ready for Hatama to return

[Venus]

grunts right
u have to figure out u can be happy alone before u can really be happy with someone else

[owly]

it be a long time before i find hapiness but ty for your thoughts grunt and v

[owly]

now that my better half is gone i feel empty, looking forward to moving back to vegas, i'm just waiting around 5 months just incase hatama changes her mind........

it was her birthday yesterday, she seemed to have a good day

[owly]

Just a update

i tried to kill myself last week from a overdose my daughter found me in the bathroom floor and she called 911, the docter said i'm lucky to be alive they want me to stay at the hospital but i talked my way out of that. i been depressed lately i miss hatama in everyway i'm still in love with her. dead or alive makes no difference to me. At the time i wanted to die but now i want to live. they pumped my stomach even thought i throw-up most of the pills, when i did (the over dose) so i'm be around for awhile. i realized how close i was to dieing. i have a gun and i think if i fall in to depression i might lose it and use the gun to blow my head off. this is my home. i love evrysingle one of you and that over dose all i remember is how much i love you all, it gives me a chance to stay alive but my mood might change that and i'll blow my head off with a 9-millameter........

Thanks for being my friend everone, love you guy.......

owly

end of rant

[Venus]

Stop that shit!!
no one in the WORLD is worth killing yourself for.

you have no idea what life u have left to live.

[owly]

hatama is worth doing it, without her i'm a empty shell and half the man i used to be, my better half gone. i don't think i'll try killing myself again anytime soon though........

[Lady Maven]

We love you too Owly. Don't forget that. We would all be very sad to have you gone from here. I know you are heading to Vegas, but if you want to swing by Reno first we'll go have a few drinks.

[Venus]

dont u dare hurt yourself, i still havent gotten over tork i dont know if i ever will., i cant take another one so soon!

id be really really pissed. so just dont do anything stupid:P

u can always message me if u wanna talk:>

[Grunt]

That is a permanent solution to a temporary problem
Do not do it man
You help no one and hurt everyone if you do
You should focus on the reasons for the breakup and change
What you can do to make your dream come true

[owly]

It really suxs when they shove a tube down your throat......

thanks for the kind words and advise

i'm still depressed but i don't think i'll try to harm myself again or anytime soon, i wonder what would of happened if i died like is there really a heaven and hell i almost found out. i think Hatama woulda come on and told you guys she knows how much you mean to me. i'm sorry

[Kenos]

I hope I don't come across as too clinical but when I'm really sad I try to remember that it's just a bunch of chemical reactions messing around in the brain, you may feel like it's the end of the world and it will never get better right now but that feeling will diminish if you give it time and you WILL be able to put things into perspective...

[MoP]

Come on, owly, stop this shit, really....

I know you lova Hatama, and I'm fairly sure she does too. Give her, and yourself some time. Dying is NOT the way to express your love.

Bear with us mate...

[Nagash]

It really suxs when they shove a tube down your throat......

thanks for the kind words and advise

i'm still depressed but i don't think i'll try to harm myself again or anytime soon, i wonder what would of happened if i died like is there really a heaven and hell i almost found out. i think Hatama woulda come on and told you guys she knows how much you mean to me. i'm sorry

Get rid of the gun, then get rid of the dope. In that order. Suicide is never the answer.

Give it all some time, and go do some things you enjoy. Live.

[TEVA]

Owly dont kill yourself its not worth the time or effort.
You cant win hatama back that way you will only push her farther away.
Think about your daughter she needs you alive.