i'm very troubled

[owly]

i think you guys are right i should lay off the drugs for awhile maybe check in a place that could help me.

The movie was great well i didn't really see it the place was empty and we talked during the whole thing. She put her hand in my lap and keeped it there, i felt like a teenager i can't get over the power of touch, she's great she was so interested with my life and i'm just glad i could share some of it with her. At the end and we was home she gave me a fast peck of a kiss on my mouth, it sure took me by surprised...........

[Venus]

owly i was gonna say i was sorry for being so harsh, but i don't think i really am

i believe you are depressed, and depression is an ACTUAL thing. You cant just will it away. you need help to cope with it.

i want you to wake up and get some help. i know right now, you seem ok. that this girl made u happy but im afraid that your one step away from this happening again. and the drugs dont help right now. even if u think they do.

so please, go talk to someone, there are plans out there for people who don't have the money to pay i believe. if money is an issue, then look into a free clinic

i wouldn't even have bothered to be bitchy if didn't care., i dont want ANYTHING to happen to you, you've kinda grown on me over the years:>

if something happens to you we would all be hurt.
so do something , talk to someone
please.

[Sturm]

From one weeder to another Owls...do a 90 day flush..It'll help bud.<nods sagely>

As for the depression, I know how you feel, pride says we can muster through it, but really we should be listening to our intellect (especially the collective intellect gathered here).

The emotions and thoughts never go away, they only lessen when we have established another focal point, delve into your hobby/work on UFO's, but also make time for yourself to reflect and above all relax, you are stronger then you may think.

Be well jedi.

[owly]

i have a different type of depression than bi-polar mine don't go away for months at a time mine is constant. It's like being in a pool and your all the way under water, the water comes at you from all directions so does my sadness it comes at me from every which way, the sadness that is. And no V money nots a problem and i'm going to see a doctor next tuesday, i'll talk to him and see where i go from there. i stopped taking aderal but i can't seem to give up the weed but i have cut down on it.

i showed marry this site and she's thinking of playing the game and posting so treat her kindly. we spent all morning together but right now she had to run to the store with her brother..........

i'll try to post a picture of us together soon if i can figure out how.

edit/Oh yeah Sturm you make us stoners proud your living proof that stoners can be very smart and witty............

[Nagash]

But you are really starting to piss me off

A FUCKING MEN!!!!!

i agree with what he said. First of all, you need to be in a fucking rehab somewhere. maybe a 30 day voluntary commitment at a mental institute even.

you need to do SOMETHING. its clear that there is something wrong

one of my flaws is i have ZERO sympathy for anyone trying to kill themselves. I don't generally try and talk them down. because in my opinion its completely fucking selfish. you don't help yourself. you just hurt other people and its selfish as hell
what your doing and letting your daughter find u every time is fucking bullshit. i have no respect for that whatsoever.

i'm sorry, i know i should be in here saying,"please don't kill yourself blah fucking blah" but stop FUCKING trying to and get some goddamn help

you know good and damn well its going to happen again, you told us its happened twice in what, three months? you say your ok now, but u said that last time to. and u did it again.

Man up and get help. your a grown ass man ,if NOTHING else you shouldn't be hurting your daughter this way.

and stop the drugs for gods fucking sake. no matter what you think, they aren't helping right now.

Blunt as it is, the Venus said it all. Good that you see that you have to lay off the drugs yourself too now. I can only hope you put your money where your mouth is and sign in to rhab. Stopping one day to the other may be a bad idea as it tends to cause relapses and panic fits. Cut it down steadily but surely and as some point you'll be able to keep away from it for good. After that point, you'll see that there is aa whole new world out there to be enjoyed.

[Lady Maven]

i showed marry this site and she's thinking of playing the game and posting so treat her kindly. we spent all morning together but right now she had to run to the store with her brother..........

yeah, no sorry, can't help you there. This aint Romper Room, this is the rubber room and the inmates have the keys.

[Gerien]

You seriously need rehab. And I'm speaking from my own experience with going through everything you are. FWIW I just got sober again myself because it was starting to make things in my life bad, and I don't want to get so far into it (drinking in my case) that I can't see the damage it's causing any longer.

[owly]

i'm not going to rehab but i'm going to N.A meetings......

i been real busy i never dated a black girl before

[Gerien]

No major changes for the first year. That includes starting relationships. It's time to fix yourself and the relationships you have (i.e., your kids).

I did N.A. for a decade to kick my speed/heroin habits. It works if you work it. Cliche, but very much true.

[Nagash]

i'm not going to rehab but i'm going to N.A meetings......

i been real busy i never dated a black girl before

"The blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice"?

[Nether]

i'm not going to rehab but i'm going to N.A meetings......

i been real busy i never dated a black girl before

"The blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice"?

I thought it was "The older the Berry the sweeter the juice" damnit Maven is spreading lies again...

[Lady Maven]

wellllll..... my berry IS turning black.. maybe that is it?

[Nether]

wellllll..... my berry IS turning black.. maybe that is it?

Does is scream at you in spanish when the light hits it?

[Nagash]

Probably in Swahili.

[owly]

It's time to fix yourself and the relationships you have (i.e., your kids).

They are not my blood children although Evette youngest daughter still calls me dad, and i still call her my daughter..........

i been so busy that i haven't been online in a while today is my first real time to relax and cruise the boards

[owly]

i'm moving to Hawaii so i have to break up with marry blehy she's very understanding though. Hawaii will be nice, i can't wait..........

[Nagash]

Back to where your roots are, eh?

Good luck!

[owly]

i have more family in hawaii than any where else and weed there is praciticly legal there i missed spelled praciticly wrong huh lol i can never get that one. i can't wait untill i get to hawaii i'm going to hit the beaches first i think. then i'm going to look up old friends that should be cool. It's going to be a long hard move but i'm ready for it, i can't take the sun here in vegas i'm forced to smoke outside and the sun blaste me full on i run to the shade and durring mid-day that's hard to find.......

[Immigrant]

good choice mate! I'd take hawaii over a broad any day;p

had a good piss up with a hawaiin the other night ironically, or part filipino by way of the islands... or what not... infectious attitude - love em

[owly]

i think i made a good choice too

My damn landlord keeps on bringing girls over to meet me when i just broke up with Marry, i still trying to get ove Yvette/Hatama. i don't want another girlfriend right now........